This time that I’ve been away from blogging, I’ve been doing a lot of thinking.
Where am I going with my photography?
I had started to lose sight of why I wanted to do it in the first place.
I got really caught up in the world of trying to be a better portrait photographer. Trouble is, I was looking at other work as “better than my own”, and “How can I be more like them?” (if they were successful). There are SO many photographers out there who are producing work that is the same look, the same type of processing, the same current photographic fads. I mean absolutely NO disrespect to anyone, a lot of the work that I see out there is beautiful! ….. it’s just that I realized that my heart didn’t want to go in the same direction. Even though a lot of this work is outstanding, it’s not who I choose to be.
There may not be a lot of people out there who love what I do, or they don’t care for the type of work I produce, or they might not think that I’m very good at what I do. That’s perfectly OK with me. I am shooting to make one person happy – myself.
I have been reading WAY too many comments from people who are trying to get into the professional portrait photographer business, and it just seems like they have one stressful situation after another. I don’t want to be stressed out by this, it’s supposed to be my escape!
I REALLY appreciate the love and support that I have received from people (especially when it comes to the portraits that I have done)! I have come to a decision. I am not going to offer any more portrait services….. not for quite some time, anyway. This is for a few reasons. The first one I’ve already mentioned (don’t need the stress). The second reason is because I just don’t have the time! I work full-time outside the home, and when I am at home, I want to spend time with my family (I feel like I already don’t have enough time for that). The last (main) reason why, is because I haven’t felt very well for a while now. I don’t know if it’s related to my MS or not, but I don’t think it’s fair if I promise to do portraits for someone, and then tell them at the last minute that I can’t show up because I am not feeling well enough to go.
It’s not that people have been beating down my door or anything, but I have had a few requests or inquiries about doing portraits.
IF I ever decide to try doing portrait work again, people will have to understand that with me, what you see is what you get. I will not sacrifice my own style for what people want. If they don’t like my style, then I wouldn’t be the right photographer for them.
I will continue to shoot, but it will be in my own style. I need to figure out who I am. I will not try to copy anyone else’s style, just because they seem to be attracting a lot of attention with it.
I do appreciate all of you – for following what I do, and for your wonderful comments (or, even if you just click “Like”)! I am still sorting things out, so I may be slow for a while yet.
Those are most of the thoughts that have been rattling around in my head lately……
Since this is STILL a photography blog, I can’t write a post and NOT share a photo! This is a self portrait that I took a couple of days ago. I have never been very comfortable in front of the camera, and I don’t like to stick with the “traditional” look. After seeing this photo, I know what I need to work on (as far as technique), but hey, it’s a start!
So, IF I don’t get back here soon – I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas and New Year (or any other holiday that is coming up that you celebrate, don’t want to leave anyone out)!
Thanks for stopping by!